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Tuesday, December 06, 2005
A Totally New Sense

Wala lang. Hindi na ako nag-uupdate. Wala na kasi akong makwento eh!

Anyway, nothing much happened. I'm still the same old April. Love-deprived, unappreciated, sad and unpredictable. Gosh, so frustrating. But, still, there have been changes. Kahit papano naman mayroon! Eheh..

I've divulged myself in LOUD punk music(indie music na lang). Wehehe.. I've developed a liking towards this kind of music. I'm so glad I've found people who also appreciate this. Well, since 2nd year naman nagsimula na akong makinig eh! Nakakaasar nga lang kasi hindi ko maipagpatuloy since wala naman akong ka-jam sa mga trip kong kanta. Sobrang napapalibutan kasi ako ng mga taong POP at RnB. Ewan ko nga ba kung bakit ganun ang mga tao. They can't appreciate things that go beyond the "standard". So what if I'm Punk and Unruly? Naks.

Seriously, people, the mainstream people, annoy me. They say nasty things about Rock and Punk and all tapos, geez naman, yung mga kanta nila.. walang sinabi. Mas may sense pa yung mga sinisigaw ng mga Vocalist ng banda kaysa dun sa cliche theme ng mga kanta ng mga BOYBANDS at kung sinong mga starlet na yan. It's just a matter of giving them a shot and hearing them out. I mean, actually hearing them. Yun lang. Erm, ako naman kasi ay walang problema sa mga taong iyan. Nakakaasar lang ung pag-TYTYPECAST nila sa mga punkista at rakista as masama, b.i. at kung anu pang negative. Tsk. Yung mga posero't posera yun! Well, dapat kasi sa musika, walang pakialamanan. Ako, naappreciate ko ang kahit anong klase. Ballad to Metal, I'll listen to it as long as trip ko siya. Pag hindi ko naman "feel", e di I'll leave it na lang. Un un eh!

Ang sarap-sarap maging iba! Ang sarap maging unique! Ang sarap magpakatotoo! I don't know about you pero I give a damn pagdating sa uniqueness at personality. No, I'm not going to judge a person naman. Wala lang. I just feel na mas magandang IKAW ay IKAW. No pretensions. Mas masarap mabuhay nang hindi ka nag-aalala sa sasabihin ng ibang tao. Masarap mabuhay na you don't give a damn about what other people will say about you. Well, kasi, ang mga tao hindi agad-agarang nauubos kaya dapat hindi magpadala agad sa kung anong sasabihin nila ngayon. Kasi, for sure, meron pang bukas at mas marami ka pang haharapin by that time.

Nakakaasar ang mga taong sobrang conscious sa sarili nila. Yung consciousness na yun humahantong kasi sa selfishness which could probably result to much more scary things. haha. Naaasar ako sa mga taong paimportante. Sabi nila ganun daw ako. Wow! I hate myself. But that is so far from the truth. Nakakaasar kaya yung mga taong ganun kasi ang lalaki ng ULO nila. Gusto kong pagbabarilin ng SHOT GUN ung mga "malulusog" na ulong iyon. Naaasar ako sa mga "pleasers" at posers. Naku. Nakaka-bwiset! magpakatotoo nga kayo! Damn it! Ampaplastic. Remember, guys and girls, you CAN't possibly please everybody! As if naman! Asa pa kayo!

Ayoko sa mga taong hindi nakikinig. Yan guilty ako. I so hate myself for not listening especially to my parents. Damn. Napak-toot kong anak! Anyway, ayoko talaga sa mga hindi nakikinig lalo na pag nag-reareason out ka na. (yan naman ang problem sa parents ko) Parang, wala na silang pakialam pa sa mga maari mong sabihin na mas reasonable at logical kesa dun sa judgment nilang una. I mean, they don't give you a second CHANCE since they don't even have time to listen to you. Bwiset, di ba?

PS(Pasingit): Natatawa ako sa tatay ko ngayon. Tinanong niya ako kung sinong sumapak sa akin after I put on liberal "amounts?!" of black eye liner on my eyes. Ehe.. Saya kaya!!!

Sana naman naiintidihan mo ang mga pinagsasabi ko. Hehe. I just wish and hope I instilled some sense in your systems, people!

Til next time!

***PUNK and POP parehas? Ewan. Anyway, ROCK music na lang. LOUD ROCK MUSIC.(isn't that repetitive? ewan.) Well, I do listen to Screamo, that is a sub-genre of PUNK, isn't that PUNK? Well, siguro kasi naisip mo sa word na PUNK ung mga tipong Green Day, Simple Plan, Good Charlotte.. well, meron namang PUNK na hindi mainstream ah!!! Paki-consider naman yun.. Tsk.. It is popular music but not all of it are mainstream punk music! More of INDIE ako.. so, hindi ko na-clarify masyado.. sorry.. (teka, bakit nga ba ako nag-sosorry!?) Basta, that's what I think.


april28 wept at 08:25 pm

Grace
December 15, 2005   03:35 PM PST
 
Hehe...yey! Nag-update na cya... anyway, doesn't it piss you off that people underappreciate you?
 

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.unlike YOU.

l o v e s
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